A side note

I Find it that I come back to this, to the blog, to the writing whenever I am in rough waters.

It calms me down, it grounds me, it shows me the way.

In a way the is nothing else I have ever wanted to do than write.

The fountain of inspiration has flourished and dried out many times through the years.
For the past few years i thought it had died out completely.
Yet it came back with a strength like never before.

And now all of a sudden I don't want to write in a darkened room or under my blanket ashamed of what I have to say, censored by the thought of other's opinion.

I have always followed my heart even when gripped with fear.

It has taken me here, so far beyond my imagination .....where could it possibly take me now, that the fear is gone?

E

Leap and the net will appear

So many things now are starting to make sense. So many signs along the way that have lead in only one direction.
And when I think back it makes me smile softly.
May be I am just crazy, or may be I see things that many people are blind for. May be I am dilusional and self desructive or may be I am wiser than I should be.
The truth is probably somewhere in between.
But the truth has many layers. There is no such thing as absolute truth.
There is no such thing as absolute reality.
All the different dimensions from sci fi movies...... They all exist. For each person's mind is a different dimension. And they are all real.

So long I've been trying to look for myself now that I am finally beginning to understand me, is it fair to stop just because it's scary and brutal.

Sometimes we need to stop fighting, just let go and let the flow take us where we need to be.
Let go of all the preconceived notions of what we are and should be of what the world around is and should be. And let it become the beautiful thing that it could be even if it's heartbreaking.

For there is no beauty without pain.

E

I'll come into the darkness

I'll come into the darkness
To see you sleeping
To touch you once again
To see your face lost in a dream.
I'll come into the darkness
To cherish the dreams we both have
I'll come to kiss you
Touch you
Feel you
Make sure you are breathing
I'll come to find out
If the pain that I caused you
Is still within you
I'll come to soothe you
And dry your tears
To stay with you
Until the pain disappears
I'll come to hold your hand
And whisper tiny words
Cry you to sleep
And tuck you in
While you are breathing deep.
I'll come into the darkness
To tell you that I love you
Just a shadow of another day
But if I come in daylight
Would you ask me to stay?