Putting the fun back into life

It seems like this year has been dragging on forever  not always filled with pleasant experiences.

Although I thought i didn't need a vacation since i am not working it seems that a change of scenery and lots of sun can do miracles. 

Doing trapeze finally gave me the trill that it used to when I first started. For more that two years trapeze wasn't fun any more it was just another thing i did.  Now the fun is back. I didn't need an excuse to stop flying- my hands hurting, falling off the catcher in apron, being sick couldn't stop me.

There is a very simple reason I can't seem to find and keep a hobby- I like trying new things. That is my hobby. Not having a challenge and doing the same thing over and over again is like death to me. So windsurfing was my first challenge in a very long time. It feels so ... I don't know the word to describe it, may be liberating. IT's just you, the sea and the wind. The taste of salt on your lips and the wind on your skin. There is no other feeling like that.  I  have always loved the sea but i never knew it like this. Like all great things I only did the last day and the last hour. Now the sea keeps calling me and i will have to go back to it sooner or later.

Yes so after a very long and weary year I think Maddie's mom is happy to be just Elena sometimes.