Last week I was told that I am not dilated at all. There has been no sign of labor coming what so ever. I feel like I am living in limbo- neither here nor there. I don't think I can't get any more uncomfortable in my own skin, not to mention my own clothes because they don't fit any more. To say I am grumpy is an understatement. I am out of breath just sitting here. My hips hurt from sleeping on my sides, if you could call that sleeping. I don't think I have had a night's sleep in weeks and I am exhausted. I am tired of being constantly tired, bored of being hungry, and sick of being pregnant.
Yet I feel that he is never coming out. I am cursed to be pregnant forever.
I am afraid my due date is going to come and go and nothing is going to happen. And then he'll be so big they will have to cut him out.
I feel guilty because I can't have good time with Madison. I am constantly yelling at her because I a in a bad mood. I can't run with her and play with her the way I used to, everything is so much effort I just can't do it and the poor thing just wants to have fun. She is climbing on me and trying to snuggle with me as I am writing this. The little pup just wants attention and playtime with her mommy and I just keep ignoring her.
And people with their abnoxious comments just drive me up the wall. Do they really think I want to know what they think about my pregnancy and how big I am?
The days are so long because I just don't have the energy to do all the things I want and have to do. The nights are even longer because I am up every hour.
Is this ever going to end?
Well this is one cheerful post for Easter....Happy Easter!
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