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It's so amazing to see her smile even though it's only in her sleep. she's getting to be quite a character and I am sure she will entertain us for many years to come.

On a different note I started donating milk. No not plain old cows milk, human milk ( as disgusting as that sounds. since i have plenty i figured i can empty my freeze by giving it to someone who actually needs rather than throwing it out or finding a hundreds miles away milk bank that may or may not be legit. I heard some banks actually sell the stuff they get donated and the milk is not cheap either- $3 per ounce ( and we complain about the prices of cow's milk) I found a mother who can't breastfeed because of a breast surgery so i gave her everything i had frozen and now i will be giving all the excess milk i have on a regular basis. she wants to breastfeed for 2 years though which in my modest opinion is nuts. when the child is old enough to say "booby" and run to it- it's definitely time to stop giving her the booby. It's a shame that there are so few milk banks and that they make you jump through fire hoops in order to donate milk. I am sure that's why so many mothers don't do it and the milk gets wasted. You have to answer a 20 min questionnaire and get permissions and get tested ...let's face it when you have a baby hanging on your boob throwing the milk down the drain seems much more tempting that going through all the trouble of donating it despite all your good will.
and since hospitals are trying t promote breastfeeding why don't they do the necessary tests and give you a print out that you can just fax or mail when you decide you want to help out a baby in need. After all it's just a few blood tests that are needed.

Meanwhile my own little munchkin is on a growing spree, feeding every hour and getting tighter in her 0-3 months outfits. We were rolling our eyes at everyone who send us winter clothes in 6-9 months size but they might come in handy. And while he is growing her anyhow non-existing schedule has turned upside down. First she decided that at 4 am it's time to get up and play so she refused to go back to bed and would smile and make faces at me while my own eyes were shutting and my head bopping.
then last night little miss thing decided she didn't need to sleep at all. So i think we managed to persuade her to nap from about 4 to 7 but other than that it was along weary night.
WEll she is now peacefully dreaming away by the sound of a brook( machine made) but i decided that that is what she is used to hearing in my womb and it seems to calm her down. It's much better than the hairdryers because one can actually hear the TV over the noise and the sound can be lowered to a bearable level.

It seems that i am so sleep deprived i am babbling. Maybe it's time to let the brook calm me down too.

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