Sleeping together?

And I am not talking about having sex. I mean sleeping with my baby in the bed.
It seems to be quite a controversial topic these days should parents and baby cosleep or not. Since most people say you should let them get used to sleeping by themselves on their crib as soon as possible thats what I did. And i was petrified that I would roll over her and suffocate her. But for the last two nights we slept together- first because she had terrible gas and was in so much pain i didn't have the heart to let her out of my arms and last night because it was too cold. And it's the most wonderful thing in the world to sleep with your baby in your arms. I was afraid that i wouldn't be able to sleep, that she would wake me up or that i would wake her up. But none of that happened. It was the most blissfull sleep ever and it is so precious.
Now Jeff is saying that I shouldn't do it because she will have trouble going to her crib but i think he's just jealous because we left him to sleep by himself in the cold bedroom. Hey , he like it cold. Me i could sleep perfectly fine in 80 degrees.

On a different and no so happy note it's agonizing to watch your child in pain and be able to do nothing. When she had those terrible gas pains the other night i just wanted to rip my heart out. She was crying and crying and could not go to sleep and i could see she was exhausted and nothing i did made it any better. I just hugged and kissed her little body and tried to calm her down and tell her it's OK. If i could i would take the pain on me but i couldn't. all i could do was hold her tightly in my embrace and whisper to her that it will pass. Finally around 2am after i ran out to get some Mylicon drops to ease her pain she colapsed with exhaustion and slept for so many hours i had to feed her while she was sleeping. I am not sure who was suffering more- her little body or my heart knowing that she was in so much pain and there was so little i could do. It really is astonishing the range of emotions that a child can evoke in the parent. I never even knew that one can suffer so much just from watching someone else be in pain. Neither did i know that a toothless smile can bring so much joy. Starting to think of it we can hardly know how colorful life is until we have a baby. It's whole different universe that we never knew existed. So many new emotions and concerns and so much more joy flood into life once we have a little person to take care of. It really is impossible to describe- one has to experience it to begin to comprehend it.

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