Alone

So I braved leaving Maddie alone with our new nanny yesterday. Strange feeling going out without pushing a stroller, carrying a diaper bag full of all my earthy possessions and scurrying back not to miss a nap. Very strange feeling - to be actually alone with my thoughts and worries and just strolling down the street like I have nowhere to be. I had forgotten the feeling. I don't really miss it. What I miss is her little wiggly body and sweet milky breath when she is not with me. If you can't tell I have a very serious case of separation anxiety. The nanny was here for 3 hours.
My child however, has no clue what separation anxiety feels like.
Sonia- the nanny- said she was giggling and laughing and playing in the sand in the playground. She wasn't even excited to see me when I saw them in front of the building. It breaks my heart.
But as JEff said do I really need a super duper clingy child. No!
Madison loves people- her daddy's girl.

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