Groundhog day...

I feel like I am stuck in a time loop where every day is the same like the previous one and everything achieved one day is lost the next.
WE went for a half an hour EEG which most likely showed nothing. She was feeling better all day saturday and sunday until last night when she started throwing up again. Daddy wasn't very trilled since this time he was on the receiving end but calmed Madison down with nice hot bath. We ended up going to bed without knowing how much medication she had taken. She seems much better now but is still running a fever.
I just feel so overwhelmed. I am lost in this chaos where everything is fine one day and the world just tumbles over me the next. Nothing gets done, there is nothing to really look forward to except another day just like this one.
I am sick of her not feeling well, of me forcing medication down her throat or pushing it in her butt; of being afraid that she might have a seizure and not being able to tell me what is wrong with her.
Is it ever going to end?

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