Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Pregnancy Glow?

Second day in a row I was stopped by a stranger and told what a lovely pregnancy glow I have.
and everybody I know is telling me how becoming my pregnancy is.
And I just find it ironic because I simply hate being pregnant. It's not that I have hard pregnancies either. I probably am one of the women to have easiest pregnancies but hate it the most.
It's not only the discomforts which although minor could be very irritating, it's all the things I can't do and shouldn't eat and shouldn't drink.
It's more of an identity crisis for me. I feel like I have lost who I am and let someone take over my body leaving very little space for me, my comfort and my own feelings
Everybody is talking about babies and being pregnant and giving their opinion and advice and asking when my due date is and ...what about me?
Yes everybody asks how I feel but would they be so concerned if I wasn't pregnant. I feel like these little rascals have stolen my identity.
I have hard time finding my own self.
It wasn't bad enough that I sort of lost myself when I became a mother the first time; before I even had the chance to recover my lost soul here comes another identity thief and I am in complete loss for finding my inner peace.
Every time I get excited about something I have to remind myself that I am pregnant and most likely can't do it so I have to wait.
The only sigh of relief comes from the prospective that I won't have to be pregnant ever again. And if you think to tell me that I might change my mind, or never to say never, ooooh I'm saying never and I mean it.
Instead of all the warning on cigarettes and booze they should be giving a warning in big signs on the streets what happens to your body and mental state during pregnancy. I can't think of a better safe sex campaign.

E.


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