It's been a hard week. both on Madison and on me.

We are starting school today. I am both excited and sad. I know she would love it but I will miss those 3 hours she won't be with me.

She will have her own friends and her own little life.

We already started her OT/PT gym and she is enjoying it because there are so many new things to explore. I was planning to be there with her but she obviously doesn't need me so I just drop her off.

She is tired and she will be even more tired but she will settle.... hopefully.

She is growing up so fast..... and at the same time she is still my little girl.....(tear!)

Max..... oh Max...he won't take a bottle. Won't even go near the formula. He will take my milk from a bottle after a fight and many tears.

The night before I let him cry because I am exhausted from getting up two times night. He cried for about an hour. finally I went in and flipped him on his tummy. He was asleep in five minutes and slept until 8 am.

Last night he didn't make a sound until 6am. Fair enough since he went to bed at 7:30.

Let's hope we are done with midnight awakenings. We are certainly done with midnight feedings. It's unbelievable to me how he can sleep so long at such an early age because Madison was up all hours of the night until after one. I went in around 5:30 to check on him. He was snoring happily with his butt up in the air.

Aside from the bottle he loves food. He has tried bananas, avocados, mangos and last night sweet potatoes. He doesn't waste an ounce and looks for more.

All the stress and hard work is finally slimming me down. Down to 140 finally. Those five pounds have been the hardest to loose.

Somehow I suspect it has something to do with the antibiotics they gave me during labor. Minutes after arriving in postpartum I saw my belly swell up and it has been bloated for about 4 months. Finally I went to a doctor and started taking probiotics. After the expensive brand that sort of helped, I tired the generic brand form Whole Foods.. Lo and behold my belly went down and I started loosing weight.

It's amazing how many dangerous things they do to women in labor and keep us ignorant about!

E