Reading back the posts I think i sound way too negative and one might get the impression that I hate being pregnant and that I would hate my baby. This is very very untrue, I am trilled to have a baby, not so trilled with the pregnancy but I am happy. I think this would be an experience that would make me more mature and teach me patience and give me other qualities that I lack.
Most of all I am happy to have a child with such an awesome person as my husband. I know he will be great and we'll have so much fun raising our kid.
I tend to express my feelings better when I am upset or depressed and that is probably why this blog such a negative overtone, but that is not the general mod of my pregnancy.
Even when I am very depressed or down or upset at something I see a baby in a stroller on the street and I smile to myself because I know that I will soon have one of those little soft squashy bodies to hug and kiss and I can't wait.
What I fear most is that something may be wrong with the baby and I don't want to bring into the world a person who won't be able to enjoy life to the fulest. But I guess every mother has those fears.
I worry sometimes execessvely - Jeff hit me with a tennis ball in the ribs yesterday while he was teaching me to play net and I worry that something is wrong with the baby. I know he should be fine- the ball hit me too high and I don't think it even affested the baby but I would like to have it checked. This might be a good reason for the insurance to pay for my next sonogram b/c they are refusing to pay for it since i am under 35 and there is nothing wrong with me. That is supposed to be "big" sonogram wher i find out the sex, but I am not paying $500 for that privilege.
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