No End in sight

So it seems like Madison is not planning on leaving her cozy little shack anytime soon.
Saw the doctor today and I am not even close to being dialated.
My mood swings are back but mostly just being grumpy and bitchy rather than depressed. It's like I am very happy one day and then the next day I am still very happy but irritated that I haven't had contractions or anything else indicating nearing labor.
I guess she has decided to wait for everybody to come back from Holiday vacation and her grandparents will be very happy about that. so is her dad, because he'll be able to finish all the projects he has started- although with him you never know- he always comes up with more stuff to do.
While me I just feel like one big parasite who only sleeps and eats and waddles around.
I can't do much because I get tired so easily and feel like a big blop all the time( i am not sure if blop is an actual word but it means exactly what it sounds like- like big messy, gushy substance blopping on the floor)
I had a great session with my therapist today-she noticed I was grumpy so she had a fun little exercise to do where she just through pieces of information at me and waited for me to reach the conclusions instead of just telling me. I like that game it's fun and it actually put me in much better mood. We talked about Jeff for the first time- and it was fun. No, honey, I still don't have anything bad to say about you.
She said that you get as much out of this relationship as i do which makes me feel like a smaller parasite. Actually talking about Jeff makes me laugh, because he is so funny and full of life. she was trying to make me think how is my relationship with Jeff similar to the relationship with my parents.And I found out that it can't possibly be any similarity because their personalities are sooooo different. And because I have enormous respect for Jeff and know that I have his unconditional acceptance and love which i never had with my parents.
Speaking of whom I talked to them yesterday and just had to laugh at everything they said. My mother asked if i need her help but couldn't say what kind of help she can offer. I just told her no but when she decide she wants to come and visit she can let me know. I don't understand why they have such trouble actually saying what they want to say. The other thing she asked me, which i found terribly funny was am I ever going to work again- for some reason they think we don't have enough money to get by. So i just laughed and said " may be eventually"
I want to work and i need to work because otherwise i get bored, still think that it's a bizzare thing to ask someone who is about to give birth any day now( hope to.
and that it's the news for today.

I'll be here waiting.

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