One day at a time

No still no Madison. she right now squeezing and twisting somewhere in my pelvis but the little princess hasn't decided it's time to meet her family yet.
I have been very impatient and trying to make her come out with walks, wine, going to the gym, eating mango and pineapple, chinese food, spicy food, squatting and god knows what else.
She is obviously not ready. So I decided to let go and let her come out on her own. Yes , am uncomfortable and I waddle around and I can't sleep but it's not fair to her. I am sure she is warm and comfy in her little world and doesn't want to come out. So she will not be a saggitarius and it looks like she won't be born in december- big deal. My predictions that she will be born on the 23rd were wrong but who cares. the full moon came and went and nothing.
I snore so bad my husband can hear me from two rooms down where he tries to get some sleep. I have now started drooling while I sleep. I only hope she'll decide to come out while I can still preserve some kind of self- respect.
On the other hand- the apartment is almost done -which makes Jeff more relaxed and me more comfortable with the fact that he won't be cutting and scraping when Maddie is here.
I have typed up notes for him while I am in labor and in the hospital because he hasn't had the time or the interest to read on any books- even after I marked the pages and highlighted everything I wanted him to read- I guess he'll just wing it. Hey that's why I love him.
In the meantime I have decided to just let go of everything. I can't make plans and control everything, can't even want everything to go my way. so I'll just take it one day at a time. I don't know what to expect from labor and motherhood, even though I read so many books. And that is the most exciting part. I'll just take as it comes and enjoy the beauty of it. I have never been happier and I don't want to miss these moments just because I am trying to plan and have everything under control.

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